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Being a guy, at age 17, is it strange that the idea of what being a "man" is nowadays pisses me off? people are stupid. That's the truth. Apparently nowadays a "man" is someone who can get with as many girls in one night as they can. What being a "man" means to me is how long you can keep that one girl and how close you can get to her heart and how close you're willing to let her get to yours. Am I a man for keeping this girl close to me and actually LOVING her AND meaning it? I think so. Every other guy seems to have the mentallity that everyone is judging their masculinity by the number of girls they've been with, so they proceed to find random girls they think they've got a shot with and tell the girl what they want to hear (without meaning a word of it of course) and if all goes as they planned, the girl gets on her knees...... fuck that. I'd much rather be living my life with someone I'll always respect, love and HAPPILY be with than living my life alone, looking for a girl that might let me fuck her (not to mention I'll be�fucking the girl of my dreams every night�while you're�out looking for something�meaningless)�Then there's guys who keep the girl close, but cheat on her...... what the hell is the point in that? You'd really be willing to risk the person that makes you happy beyond belief (assuming she means anything to you in the first place) just so you can blow a load on some stranger? That's a risk (in my eyes) that's definately not ever worth taking. 90% of the guys I know are assholes that do think it's ok as long as their girl doesn't find out.� I don't understand it, I just really think they all deserve to get their asses kicked for thinking that way, but then more than half the men in america would be in the hospital..... In my opinion, I think more girls cheat on their boyfriends than the other way around, but more guys seem to openly think it's alright if they do it to their girlfriends.

Fuck people like that, they're all dumbasses for not being true to themselves and their partner. I just hate liars/fake people more than anything, hence the reason why I have much to say about this.

I've got nothing in this world, neither possesions nor positions. Nobody knows my name, i'm not in the list of fame.

But one thing's for sure, my Father in Heaven knows my name. Having Him as my personal�Savior is more than enough to fill all the emptiness in this world.

Without Him I might have gone astray, I might have wandered and wander in the dark. But through Him I've got restored and I thank the Lord for giving me a chance to see what really lies ahead in this temporary world.�

It's been two days already since the marathon ended but, my legs are still in pain. Ouch! Yesterday, when I went to school, some of my classmates were�experiencing the same thing. We couldn't walk normally. It was so hard going up and down the stairs. It was also hard to move from one building to another. I, rather sit on a chair than move around. But I don't a choice since, we have to go to different classrooms. Today, I'm going to school again. I still have 2 classes to attend. Just hope I could resist the pain.

Im not going to sit here complaining how "life sucks" and how�I "hate" my parents. Im not that ignorant,�I know for a fact that there's a lot of kids who are far worse off than�I am. Not many kids can accept that though. They feel as if people actually care to hear them whining about how "shitty" their lives are. Most of the time it's just them crying about how they have the worst parents in the world. It's annoying to hear, not only because they're acting like two year olds who don't get their way, but because their parents ACTUALLY CARE!!! Kids like these deserve to get smacked. I hate hearing you little kids say "i hate my parents" because you dont!! If even one of your parents were to die tomorrow, you KNOW you would be taking those words back as fast as you could. You can't "hate" your parents because they yelled at you one time in who knows how long. I suggest taking a look in the mirror to see who the real asshole is, becasue odds are its not your parents. Although some people DO have some unfit parents. Parents that come out and say "you dont matter" and constantly remind you that you ruined THEIR life and how they cant wait until you're 18 so you can stop wasting their money. These kids who "hate" their loving parents have no idea what its like to have parents that hate YOU. They don't have to struggle to keep themselves alright in the head. They dont have to worry about getting brainwashed into thinking they're just a piece of shit. They don't get to feel any REAL physical pain or have that constant mental strain. But somehow they still "hate" their loving parents. Kids like this deserve to see what it's like living with REAL problems with parents that clearly don't give a fuck about you. I'd LOVE to see how those kids would react to THEIR mom dragging them through the house and kicking them out in the winter without so much as a pair of shoes. I doubt they'd still "hate" their parents because they got their xbox taken away. Asshole kids, there's too many of them, it's worse than a damn plague. I'm used to crap like this. I'm used to the fact that MY mom will never and has never loved me. According to her, I'm just a�"faggot�little bitch" while�the asshole kids with big mouths get tucked in at night and get called "honey bunchkins"......�Most kids�have no clue what it feels like to be hated by your parents. But they will still always open their mouths to say "I hate my parents"........ fuck you, you'll never understand, you'll just never get it.